ON FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, BLURRED LINES, AND A LACK OF CLOSURE
1. hard feelings/loveless - lorde / 2. @unsenttextsuggestion / 3. el lenguaje del limbo II - mariana restrepo / 4. blue nights - joan didion / 5. @blossomfully / 6. “the pillowcase” in everyone i love is a stranger to someone - annelyse gelman / 7. let me hold you - malcolm t. liepke / 8. the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! - sufjan stevens / 9. talk me down - troye sivan
Today was a nice day. I really miss calling you and telling you everything. Everyday was just better with you in it.
I read something that said “you don’t have to be over it to move on” and it’s absolutely right. I don’t have to be over it to move on and neither do you. I really hope you find love my sweetheart. I want nothing more than for you to be happy. I’d much rather prefer if we were happy together, but since my family made it impossible, I’d still want for you to happy.
I’m on my way to work rn. You don’t know this but I started working in that place I’ve always dreamed working. Funny thing is that it was such a big disappointment. Anyway I’m planning to leave but I just don’t know what to do next. I’m as lost as when you left if not even more. Allah always have a plan for us though which makes me less anxious. I was listening to No light no light by Florence + the machine and there’s this verse where she says “you don’t choose what stays and what fades away, but I’d do anything to make you stay” and it just hit hard cause I really would do anything to make you stay. Okay so enough about me. I really hope you’re okay.
It’s been 7 months since we last talked. You’ve no idea how much I miss talking to you. You were the only one I talked to daily and I just miss this the most, having you every hour of every day. Life is extremely sad and lonely without you. I’m missing you a little extra these days and I thought I’d write here to you everyday till it starts hurting less.
